Bev its nearly one month since you left me, still cant undertsand why, every day that passes is just another day wasted, another day of sunshine not on your face I am coping but feel like im am only just managing , feel like one thing is going to make me just lose it, I see you in my minds eye all the time, think of you constantly, you did such a silly thing and it cannot be changed back, the finality of it all is what hurts so much and the questions thats will never be answered will always leave a gap in my heart and soul, miss you and love you always Colin xx