Still thinking of you all the time Bev it does not seem to be getting easier. I thought it would but when I wake up in the morning you pop into my head. I think of reasons why and imagine you being so alone and I cry. The stupidest things remind me of you, words, sounds and you are in my mind again. I try so hard to only think of the happy times but I am still shocked, still cant believe you have gone, still half expect you to suddenly appear but I know you wont, I am coming to realise that and it hurts so much to know I will never talk with you again, never hear that laugh, never see that smile, never laugh with you on the golf course again I hope you are smiling where ever you are love you always Colin xx