Bev I saw you today at the chapel you were dressed in your golfing top and had your golfing cap in your hands you were so serene I left you your lilies that you loved so much and a pound for any round of golf you play up in heaven because I am sure you will soon have them all converted. I left you a letter in your hands and i hope somehow god willing you will read it. i am so sad at losing you so sad that you could leave us all in the way you did I know you did not mean to do it, it was a cry for help and it went wrong. I will always miss you and I remember you all the time, everything I see everything I hear reminds me of you and the pain is so deep within me, everyone is missing you sleep soundly Bev only two days to go to your funeral then I will lose you forever god bless you