Bev managed to put some of your photo`s up today. So I see them every time I come in room, something I could not have done a few days ago. If I cannot see you how can I come to terms with the fact that you have gone. Some are of you golfing some of us on holiday. When I can I will add them, I can look at you and can now begin to see you in happier times and when you were enjoying yourself and it eases the pain a little for me. Not all the pain, I still miss you and wish you were here but I know now that you cant be and I have to come to terms with that and remember the happy times we spent together its the only way I can cope. I will always miss you and the pain will never ever really go away, I love you and miss you always Colin XX